There ain't much to say... Fought stupid wars and I still fight stupid wars... And I am sorry for most of them... Most of them were condemned to failure and loss since day one... Most of them were against myself... But I am not sorry for fighting them. I had to, I just had. All along I have been just a pawn most of times. Unlocking doors, jumping off cliffs, putting myself in front of a runaway train... I just had to. My mind doesn't admit turning back and just admits failure in well proved lost causes. Do you see? Shit turning to shit since the beginning.
It is unfair most of the times. I blindfold myself so that I cannot see the harm I am doing to myself. No, I am not sorry for most of those who I've harmed, they had it coming. And no, I am not sorry on myself, self-pity is a gift for those who don't have a fucked up ego and/or are egocentric. Yes, apparently, you can have a fucked up ego and still be an egocentric... But they usually don't end well.
This is no art, this is no Sun Tzu book. This is plain stupidity. This is a quick step over the edge between being on top to being used to everything. Yes, I have been used and I am not gonna be a hypocrite creep and say I have never used anyone in my life. I've been used to show things others could just dream because of their utmost stupidity and weakness. Their fear for somethings completely harmless. And so, they use others, use them and then throw them away because they think they have no use anymore while they show them selfs as peacocks with all their plumage... But their plumage is fake and so are them. Of course nobody cares, the plumage is so "beautiful" that nobody cares. Nobody cares while others rot in their pride. Not because they want to be part of this fashion, but because they just want a decent thank you. But why should they thank anything, you're just another pawn. You were just there to see the new prom queen because she needed you to open the door for her. And so we keep. The new prom queen contaminates even more an already contaminated world, while you're contaminated by your own poison that is pride.
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